*long exhale*
Oh, my children, my precious, darling children. I never thought I'd be saying this.
Alright, let's start from the beginning. I'm leaving the Undertale fandom.
I've thought about this long and hard, as I do still enjoy watching the amazing artists and animators that are or were in the fandom. But ever since I got into OsomatsuSan, I've been drifting farther and farther away. It's true that I haven't watched anyone play the game for a year or so now, and the true meaning of it, all the emotions that I felt when I first saw it, seem only like distant, oversaturated memories. Don't get me wrong, I'm never going to forget the beautiful artists who made amazing things from the game. But I don't feel as connected to the fandom as I used to be.
It sucks, really. I hardly even got to develop ConclusionTale, which I was so excited to share with everyone. But, I guess, seeing as the AU was set after Undertale died as a fandom, ConclusionTale can begin for real now...
Sigh... farewell, my AU <3
But... that's not all I'm saying goodbye to.
Now that I'm gone from the fandom, what good is it to be under an account named after a character, is it?
And it's not only that. I don't like this account.
I lied to get on here. I made this account when I first joined Undertale as a very, VERY cringy twelve year old who was still so deep into Fnaf I was making animatronic ship children.
But I've changed a lot since then.
My main OCs has changed, their personalities have changed, their appearance has changed... some I've even gotten rid of entirely.
I have more self-esteem and confidence in my art.
I don't feel like I have to follow everyone who follows me anymore just so they'll stay with me.
I'm more cautious about what I do and say to people, and of future consequences my actions may have.
My art has improved.
I have improved.
I don't want to be compared to who I was back then. And I know that I will be.
But... I can't leave.
I've made so many friends. I've meet so many people. And I love each and every one of you so, so much.
However.
As all of you may have noticed, I haven't been on much. I have over 200 followers, and it sucks knowing I can't be there for someone who might really need it because of my frequent absences.
So, I'm starting fresh.
But...
I'm not telling everyone what my new account is.
I'm only going to tell my real life and closest DA friends the name.
Please, don't be angry with me. I am really so sorry. I love you all, so much, and I hate that I have to do this to you.
But it's so stressful, being absent when I know I have so many people relying on me to be there, and often times I CAN'T.
To everyone I have wronged on this account, everyone I've cursed at or called names, I'm sorry.
To all the friends I've made on this journey, thank you.
To everyone I've ever met or comforted in a state of distress, stay strong. I've been through both paranoia and depression this year, and I've survived. Don't give up. It's not over yet. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep running towards the sunshine, because it's still there. It just got lost behind the clouds.
I love you all so much. I can't say it enough. I couldn't have gotten to where I am today without you guys.
But I've stalled enough.
I'm afraid that it's time, my friends.
Goodbye, everyone.
Signing off for the final time,
Sanstheskelepun10
<3